“In less than a week, I’ll return for yet another round of infusions. The irony isn’t lost on me that spending more time in a hospital could mean that I get more time on this earth. Since returning to ministry last July, I’m slowly learning that I’m not the same person I was. Truthfully, the more I try to be who I believed I was, the harder life becomes. Yielding to God each day to continually shape and form me is a practice of leaning into both life and death.”